Life is full of change – some are easy to get through, some changes are tough. Some are happy changes, some are not. I have a change coming that at this moment feels like one of my biggest yet…

When I became a mother 2 years and 5 months ago I was working full-time in a relatively stressful job. I took a traditional 3-month maternity leave, found a daycare for my Z, and went back to work. As soon as I was back I knew something wasn’t right. My Z was having a tough time sleeping at daycare and for her, not enough sleep means bad behavior, fussiness, and just not herself (she is like this to this day and I’m sure most kids are the same). We switched centers and it was the same if not worse. Her personality is to be a social butterfly who hates to miss any fun (the apple doesn’t fall far from the tree) and it was hard for her to sleep no matter how much she needed it when she heard and knew others were up having fun.

During this time I also wasn’t the mother I wanted to be. I carry my work home with me, I find it hard to mentally separate, and always have. I was doing both daycare drop-off in the morning and pick-up in the afternoon and always felt late, rushed, and full of anxiety. At work I was told “once you’re a mother you can’t give your job 100% effort…you’re lucky to give it 80%.” Hmph, I didn’t like the sounds of that because that person said the same thing about motherhood, too and I definitely saw it happening in myself. That summer, we made the decision that I would switch jobs to work part-time in a less stressful/demanding role. I was lucky to find a great job that allowed me to work from home, too – even better! And then…well, you know I am pregnant with our second and knowing what I know now and after much discussion, thought on long-term career goals, and financial planning – a huge change in our lives is coming this week…I will stop working for a time to stay at home with our kiddos.

I am excited. I am nervous. I am thrilled. I am hesitant. Working hard at my career to excel and move forward has always been a focus of mine. When I switched careers from marketing events to non-profit event fundraising I fought hard for jobs and worked my tail off to be successful. I know this is a pause in that for me, that I will go back to work some day, but it feels HUGE.

I also know I am lucky that this is an option for me, that there are tons of moms and dads out there in similar situations who can’t not work for financial reasons. Of course this will change some things in our lives as well, but I know I am lucky that this change was even something to be considered. At the end of the day and why this decision was made is because your children are only little once and for such a short period of time. For us, for the personality of our Z, and for our baby soon to be born – the best decision has been made. And I know this will be a change I will look back on and never regret!

Ps. I don’t usually get very personal here, but this topic has been on my mind for so long I thought I would share. I’m thankful to have this spot on the internet as a creative outlet, which will certainly continue, if not grow after I stop working a traditional job. So…thank you for reading and I hope you continue to do so!

Time for Mom

7 thoughts on “Change

  1. Beautiful and insightful, Jess. You made the right decision, you will have trying days with 2 little ones, but like you say they are only little once and they will thrive with you with them. Life is all about change, and we need to adapt to them. There will be more than enough time in the future for your career, right now it is all about Motherhood!!


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  3. I also quit work to stay home for a bit when my children were little (and still only work part time as to spend as much time as possible) and it is a decision I have never once regretted. Like you said, it is not possible for everyone, but these moments are fleeting and it is so wonderful to be able to enjoy them all.


    1. Thank you for your comment, Michele! It’s such a tough, personal decision and I am so glad to hear you’ve had no regrets!! I am excited starting this new stage in our lives, so far, so good!


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